SOLITARY JOURNEY

Mine has always been
a Solitary Journey
knowing
that in the end
i must go it alone...

DARK EMPTY SKY

Lightning flashes
then passes
always
a Dark Empty Sky
Presence

COSMIC MOTHER

Sophia
the womb of creation

birthed Divine Pairs

Gods  and Goddesses

who exert cosmic power

to restore balance, higher Love

and Wisdom

to form Unity Consciousness

to reveal the realization that we

are part of this planetary organism

Gaia

the body of the Mother

who morphed into the planet

and whose womb is

both Earthly and

Cosmic

who is the embodiment of herself on Earth

who acts as a bridge to Higher Worlds

and multi-dimensions

Our Mother

Earth

EMPTINESS

The Highway of Information
blurs my awareness
Emptiness...
taking out the Garbage
what to do with knowledge

know-nothing
know it all

SUBMIT

As I submit
to the Feminine Power
within
I become Moved
to move
lest I
become stagnant
in quest of Perfection

I submit
to the Cycle of Birth, Death,
and Rebirth
I am moved
to Inhabit my own feelings
trust the Unknown
Stand in my Own Experience

I am moved
from watching mind
to letting my mind alone

Letting go
fully Present
in the Here and Now

MY FRIEND TOM

It was 50 years
since we last met
but some people
you just don't forget

We resonate to the same tune
Playmates on this Stage of life
you and I
And playmates we remain
Becket and Castle come and go
But we are One and the same

You appeared and re-appeared
in truth, you never left
Before we ever met
our Destinies forged as One

Your re-appearance but a confirmation
of the Oneness by which
We live and re-live

WARRIOR

In my mistakes, sorrows, and regrets
of the past
I was but lying down the groundwork
for that which my Heart, now, delivers me

Were it not for thoz mistakes/sorrows
which turn out to be my Path
I would not now be on the verge
of Liberation

So don't look to the past with sorrow
nor the future with hope
But embrace the Here and Now
with all the skill and heart-filled compassion
you have gathered

Live the moment with the Force of a Warrior

HEALING HEART

Allow Heart to become the operative center
of your body/mind
allowing it to guide you
trusting your instincts in a different mode
of knowing

Heart will take you places
that in trepidation, mind fears to venture
its subtle powers work like erosion
in dissolving obstacles, obstructions
by its very touch
all the while opening a greater landscape

Land's end is not an end in itself
some far-away place
but Return
Return Home again

From my Heart
comes all the Power I need
Both subtle and strong
waiting only for the movement
by which it is called

"I" am not the actor, the doer
but by Emptiness, the absence of obstacles
Reality rushes in
All I need be is Present
Presence is Action 

THE BELOVED

Blessed be The Beloved
She and I both
saturated with the soft rain of Love

SACRED in the PROFANE

I know a Sacred Place
deep in the Ponderosa Pines
even hugged a tree or two
felt the Presence of the Forest
Divine

Not something one can do
in the city
ever hug a building
Yet
wherever the place
the people imbue it
with a sense of Presence
that comes from within
a reflection of their Self-Nature

We are Sacred
we, if connected, experience the world as such
Sex in the City
or
The Sacred in the Profane

Could it be both
are we seeking to transform
the cold, hard world of concrete and steel
into feeling and warmth
Re-make it into our True Image

EMPTINESS

Spring cleaning is not far off
broom in tow
time to rid yourself
of all thoz old shoes, ill-fitting jeans
and more importantly dated concepts,
images, patterns, and stock stories

submit yourself to a rigorous re-examination
of not just what but how you perceive
we're not talking about an orderly an efficient closet
here
Not by a long shot
rather we mean to shake that head up
loosen the cobwebs and start fresh

We want a Dark, Cosmic Womb
primed for fertility and fecundity
not a word-processor

False ideas build walls
separation is the source of sorrow and suffering
realize your status as the one connected with the many
Be not afraid to enter the Void
Drop False Identity Get to the Naked Truth

Joy and Exuberance accompany True Emptiness
No burdensome pressure to maintain identity
Freedom!

TAPESTRY

I've had my time in the sun
memories are but fleeting shadows
nothing lingering, nothing undone
nothing to hold onto

The undeniable Here and Now
comes of itself
with an irresistible Presence
No reveling in past glories
no anticipation of imagined futures
Just the Immediacy of the Moment

I forged my identity
with convincing strength
now I must lose it
also convincingly enough

Encountering the Emptiness of the self
is a joyous relief
no burdensome identity to maintain
an experience of inter-connectedness arises
the realization that all things are joined
Each experience and event are contained in all others

In each moment all moments flow in and out
Weave a Tapestry of One in the Many

NAMASTE

Where Stillness and Movement
Co-inside
this is the Central Point
at which I arrived

Movement in Time
but Stillness in Eternity
the Eternal Moment realized
the Sacred in the Profane

The Center is You
The Center is Me
Namaste

HUMPTY DUMPTY

We experience the Outer World
like Humpty Dumpty
Who took a great fall
We try to patch the pieces together
to make ourselves whole

Our Journey thru Life is like a bus ride
someone else is driving, we have no control
things get chaotic, first we lose our shoes
then our luggage is scattered, clothes soiled
strewn across the floor of the bus
our only choice is in our reaction

We put together the pieces
mix-matching, trying to make things whole
whilst all the while
In our Inner Beings we rest in a Heart
that is complete
Oneness

TRANSCENDENCE

In Transcendence
"going to the mountaintop"
the Journey is only halfway complete
the path leads back down again
bringing the "mountaintop" to the "Here and Now"
otherwise
Enlightenment is only an excuse
thinking all is already perfect
glossing over conflict and difficulty
The feeling of Peace is Illusory
Rather

We must give full attention
to the moment at hand
with the powerful energy awakened
exciting experiences begin to arise
as New Energy flows thru our body
releasing blocks of tension
opening New Channels

What is experienced within
applied to that which is without
transforming the culture in which we live
bringing Compassion and Understanding
to the Here and Now

AN ECHO

An echo
reverberating, dissolving all barriers
like a lightning bolt it strikes
with Kundalini force
rising as an arrow
true to its mark
destroying its target
opening new pathways
Consciousness

SHADOW DANCER

A Shadow Dancer
hidden in the Universe
A Divine Game of Hide and Seek
Revealed only by the Vibratory Field it emits
connecting all elements into a Whole

Found both within and without
An inner resonance
Direct Experience of the Primordial Sound--
Consciousness

CAROLINA

I search my Soul
within
for the Divine Feminine
My Anima

Stillness and Silence
I must cultivate
then She arises
For She is always there
Always Present
I must just cease being
take no-action, make no movement

Thru no-effort, She arises
My Twin
Sister that I've longed for
Hand in Hand we Dance

When the Dream of Maya
ceases
She is there
Beyond Time and Space
for Eternity
She is there

MOTHS

Like moths we hover
"round the gas street light
afraid  of returning to the Depths of Darkness
preferring the edge instead

But the Darkness has an irresistible reality
it glows
we must make the objective  real
by Reaching Out
like a babe in a crib reaching out with one hand
for that indefinable something

Listening, feeling, forming
The internal craving for You
innate, intuitive
it prompts us to Reach Beyond

We plummet, descend into the Black Void
Objective Reality dissolves
Only by this Primal Contact
can You survive
In Darkness is our Soul, nourished
fed then bled
the Blood Sacrifice is of the Body only
by it the Soul blossoms, expands
then dissipates

What is done in Darkness
bubbles to the Surface
keys for transforming the objective world

SLIPPING AWAY

Slipping away night after night
to find  You
the Cosmic Mother
Slipping  Away in the night
even during the day
to find a personal, other You
Love

By this Cosmic Connection
Life sustains itself, projects, develops
Loving, finding You in the night
during the day

Seeking the Cosmic Connection
developed in the Womb
transforming the objective world
into the Cosmic Mother
to transform, to find completion
I into You
Love

DOOR TO UNCONSCIOUS

There is a Door
to Intuitive Wisdom
a specific way of Contemplation

One looks at whatever arises
with continuous attention, without reacting
focused, your attention is unbroken
follow the rising and falling of movement

There is an emergence
into a world of equanimity and freedom
leaving the old state of being and coming into
the New
But suddenly, you drop into the Unknown
your mind drops away
a deep flow of energy rushes toward you
You are in contact with the depths

Both conscious and unconscious contents of mind
are Purified
by Intuitive Wisdom
The Door closes
You must return

CYCLE OF LIFE AND DEATH

moment to moment
breath to breath
Life arises, then falls
only to rise again
Fresh, Reborn, New
in each Eternal Moment
transcending itself
leaping from one moment
to the Next
dying unto itself
only to rise again
again and again

ESCAPE THE WHEEL OF LIFE

The present moment provides thrust
to escape karma, ideas, concepts
the intersection of conscious and unconscious
is a divine intercession
a one-time opportunity
to free oneself from the wheel of life

THROW YOURSELF AWAY

Throw yourself away
as personality, ego-identity
delve into the Unknown, the Universe

Coming into contact with the Unknown
you feel a flow of tremendous energy
coming toward you
Conscious and Unconscious make contact
at this incredible moment
You are on the edge of something marvelous
You are Returned to your Original
Undefiled Self

The True Self knows what you need
give yourself to it completely
Unconditionally

Stay away from mind games--duality
What you seek
Arises--Just Arises
not out of thinking or striving
It arises out of your true Self Nature
an unthought, non-conceptual experience

Be as you are
You are what you seek, already
Trust

Kenosis ◦ Realize Your True Self

NATURE SPEAKS

Nature speaks
thru a steep, up-hill climb
my leg muscles respond
engorged, blood-rushing, pumping
my lungs inflate, expanding my chest

the crest in view, drawing me on
my pace quickens, the summit
mounts
body and hill are One

another hill in sight
only this time, no struggle, no fight
the hill rolls beneath my feet

Nature without, Nature within
nothing but hills, wind and song
The World is mine

TEPEES ALONG COLORADO RIVER

A morning walk to Mt. Bonnel...
the overlook at the Colorado River
at first glance, the placid, lifeless appearance
of morbid mansions
an empty testimony to wealth and privilege
but a deeper seeing reveals
an Indian Village of tepees strung out
along the Colorado River
smoke arising from cooking fires
tempting aromas fills the air
the chatter of women
going about their morning chores
the laughter of children playing
the barking of dogs...

A Deep Silence penetrates
like a mist
sustaining a vision of the Past
still lingering in the Present Moment

The appearance of wealthy mansions
like a shadow obscures
the Rightful Vision of an Indian Encampment
which accords with Nature
with the Law of Heaven

The Past Moment bursting thru
the Present
Transcending the Edge of Unconscious/Conscious
the vital force of Suchness (tathata) dominates
a moment of timelessness

UNITY OF BEING

Live in the moment of your Awakening
Awaken to every moment
By deep silence within
Love flows out
and draws all into
Oneness

wu-wei...it is finished

NEW CREATIVITY

Amazed am i
at the threshold upon which we stand
any frequency of time/space
at our disposal, recall

Let us give testimony
to Creative wonders!
The Beauty of Nature Undiminished

IN DEEP SPACE

In Deep Space
both Time and Space
 are like channels on a TV set
adjustable to any conceivable frequency

And I tune into the place and time
of our co-existence
Children we were
Innocent, unaware of duality
To that moment
Return
Revel in our Oneness

INNOCENCE

If we could but share
Courtship
revel in the innocence of Youth
the inadvertent touch of hands
a stray meeting of eyes
our lives spread before us
as a summer's picnic

this moment caught in Eternity
never diminishing
if this we could share

you say my impulsiveness is too great
but you too feel the stir of
puppy love
nuzzling together, a flirtation with time
never to advance, not to recede
but remain just as we are
Innocent

AWAKENING

Let the Light of Pure Awareness
shine
and illuminate my mind

to live in the Light
dissolves the shadows
cast by fleeting identifications
of the conscious, ego mind

this moment holds the Forces of
Spontaneity
without which, there is no Substance
in action

Truth in Substance
not image

DEEPER REALITY

The sense of I AM
Being
is the manifestation of a
Deeper Cause

We are not what we appear to be
on the surface
to the conscious mind

That subtle, Hidden Presence
is our Deeper Reality
The beingness that lies
in-between moments, in-between words
is our True Source
our True Selves

It is the Un-born
the undying
Eternal Life

WHO AM I

I am the cool concrete porch
of the downtown church
where I spent my first homeless nite
in Austin

I am the fast moving clouds above
that lulled me to sleep
after a day of aimlessly wandering the streets
in Austin

I am the loving and accepting woman
who took in an unknown wanderer
in Austin
the woman who dripped ice-cold water
down my back on a hot summers day
in Austin

I am the consciousness-busting-conscious
about to take flight
in Austin

HEART UNBOUND

Remove the blinders
Mind has imposed upon seeing
see with the Heart

See the other
as yourself
enclosed, wrapped with all the experiences
of the self
Loved as the self
known as the self

When I behold you
I am seeing the God in you
(as I see Him in myself)

We are all extensions of the Divine
once we recognize this Oneness
Love can't but help be the result
Love for ourselves, Love for the other
Love as a way of being

DEEP HEART

Deep  Heart
go in search of it
or rather, open yourself to it
its all around you
Heart is you

You've no more to do
than dislodge Mind
from the place it has usurped
Place it properly
as a tool to serve your Awareness
Not as its Guide

Heart is the Divine Spirit within
placed there by the Creator
to guide you on your Journey
into  Consciousness
Mind only blinds you
traps you, causes you to stumble and fall
Trust in the Unknown
we can never solve a problem
by the terms with which it was created

Get out of the box
of conscious mind
Let your actions be unshadowed
by conscious purpose
for therein is no true nature

Only in Spontaneity
is Truth revealed

RETURN

The ego-mind is persistent
Ever Resistant
to Inevitable Return
Return to the Primary Source
of Being

Forever tempting us
with intricate scenarios, images
crafty agendas of how things might be

But the Creator works not from such well-laid plans
but from Spontaneity

CROSSING SHOAL CREEK

The rusted steel rails
are ever fresh
As I cross Shoal Creek
once again

My mind
as it turns over
like the creek below
ever flowing, constantly renewing

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BOUNDLESS

Boundless
is the scope of Divine Vision
so much more is possible
than we humanly imagine

We can only prepare ourselves
to receive bountiful gifts
from above
by increasing the Love in our Hearts

Thru Love all things are possible

RUSSSIAN WILDFLOWER

Nina
the Russian wildflower
embodying the beauty and majesty of her country
On the outside Nina is simple and pure
Easy to laugh and quick to smile
But on the inside
Nina is as deep as Lake Baikal

She's a bit of a tease, you know
Nina, will always be
The one that got away!

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SHIMMERING GOSSAMER

Surface tones, playful, delightful
but a sustaining call from the Deep
permeates, integrates
providing holistic unity
so playful tones can prance
dance, unselfconsciously

Innocence enshrouded
in the web of the Primal

SURRENDER TO HEART

Drop the illusion of  Perception
You, Your Being
is in your Heart, not your Head
Listen for its Voice
it permeates your\ Body
resounding thru and thru
with every beat of your Heart

SISTERS

My Sister Nirmayla
stay but a while
abide
dwell in my Soul

Nourish all Sisters
of the World
who thirst for your Gifts

Sisters
ye with open Hearts
drink, be filled
with the Treasures of Spirit

SPIRITUAL PATH

Stay on the Spiritual Path
my friend
Transcend the lower psyche
desire, anger, greed
all ego impulses

Remember who you are
A Spirit born into a human body
not a human with a spirit

Affirm your Spiritual Identity

WORLD ALIGHT

From the Heart
thru the eyes
into the eyes
and Heart of another
Love travels

and so it passes
until the whole world
is Alight
by the Family of Light

EYE TO EYE

I see in your eyes
as you see into mine
may we exchange
the Heart of God

May Divine Bliss
be yours, beloved Friend

GODDESS

When I behold you as
Goddess
I am not objectifying you
for
We are One
Your personal, exterior apperance
By Grace is but the Reflection
of the Eternal Unity of Our Soul

By Grace
Your are the manifestation
of the Spirit
that lives and moves in you and I
in all the world

CALL TO ONENESS

That vibration
which transcends mind
is the trumpet by which all creation
is assembled into Oneness

Duality, polarity
divisiveness of any kind
collapses
and then
Ascends again
into an organic, living, breathing
Oneness
Plant, animal, mankind
the Earth itself
the Universe and beyond

One complete deep breath
an Inhalation
which unifies all into existence
again